I'll never forget this year..just like my past, another testimony I am living out.
It says the tougher the storm that your marriage goes through, that the stronger you both will be united in the end.
I believe that will be so for Seth and I.
The only thing that has kept us together through Josiahs sickness, has been God.
Its true what they say about a childs tragedy can be a breaking point for any marriage.
Its alot of stress in a marriage, for sure.
A heavy burden on our hearts.
BUT the thing is, I dont fear for Josiahs future anymore.
A calm reassurance has passed over me, that only God has given me.
I was a mess, comparing other babies to him and watching for milestones that wouldnt come..instead of just embracing each that he did do.
So what if he is behind and struggles with some things...he is still my beautiful ginger boy.
I love looking at him and listening to him talk to me.
His smile that covers his whole face..this is an answer to prayer.
He is ALIVE!
I understand, now, why God allowed this to happen.
He didnt do it, mind you, but he allowed it.
Why he didnt answer my prayer for complete healing as of yet.
Because of Josiahs special needs, my path has crossed people I wouldnt have passed if Josiah hadnt become sick.
I have been blessed to be able to give someone else strength in their journey as others did for me.
I have been able to pray with them and for them, where I wouldnt have before.
To share stories to all of you of the world and its broken children, that I wouldnt have been able to do.
God took a tragedy and turned it into His glory...thats the way God works.
I have to trust in Him that He knows whats best..and I am ok with facing an unknown future to a KNOWN GOD!
You see, what keeps a smile on my face many days, is that I know that God is coming soon anyways...that what my son may face here is just temporary.
It wont be long till my Jesus will come with all His angels to bring us home.
I long for the day I can hand Josiah over to Him, to share my son, my gift from Him, to Him.
I know my grandmother will be thrilled to meet her new grandson,also.
This is what keeps me strong each day...
Until then...if Josiahs life can bring others to Christ;that surpasses any milestone he could ever conquer.