Such wonderful things have started happening in my life, but the doubt has grown more and more. As people celebrate with me and tell me what a great influence I have been..the doubt grows. From excitement to dread. How could something so great turn me to start doubting myself? That's an easy answer. Someone out there doesn't want me to do certain things..to share to everyone my life and my struggles. To share how God..my Father, has saved me, and continues to do so daily.
He knows my ins and outs..he knows my weaknesses. He knows exactly what to put in my path to drag me down.
The devil can do this. Even to the point of using people around you.To put words into their mouths to deter you from whatever it is you are doing. Don't think that he hasn't done it to you or will do it in the future.
The more and more you stand up and out for God, it will be like a rising storm. Does that scare me? Honestly, a little bit. I am afraid of what will come. I am afraid, will I be strong enough? Already that old devil is working.
The doubt..the fear that I will mess up and disappoint everyone around me. The fear of being a "messenger" for my Lord and disappointing Him.
Do you think God put that in my head? No way..
Guess what? That devil may be trying to drag me down, but God gives me words EVERYDAY to pull me through. He has always always helped me to find words to comfort me when I'm tired and scared.
He gives strength to those tho are weary. Even young men become weak and stumble and fall. But those who wait for The Lord and go to Him for help will have their strengths renewed. They will soar like eagles. They will walk and not grow weary.
This lifts me..this encourages me to know that God is listening.
He will give me strength to keep on doing His work.
Today, as I continue to study Isaiah, the doubt of being worthy or of failing Him has eased because of the words He gave me this morning. I choke up just reading them because I know they were meant for me to read. He knows my heart. He knows that I'm scared. That I am terrified. But He loves me and encourages me to keep on going. This is why I can't tell you enough times to read your Bible everyday. You won't make it out there if you don't. You won't know Christ truly if you don't. To know Him and to love Him, to spend time with Him as a child does with their parent.. So it is with us and Gods word. It brings a connection that we cannot have unless we do.
Here are the words God gave me today that helped me in my doubt.
May you find them encouraging and also to continue doing what God has asked of you.
The Lord says, "don't fear, my children. I will help you. I myself, the Holy One of Israel, your Redeemer and Savior, will come and help you. I will make you as powerful as a threshing sledge with sharp teeth. You will crush mountains of difficulty and turn the hills into chaff. You will toss them as dust in the air, and the wind will come and blow it away. You will rejoice in The Lord and glory in the Holy One of Israel.
When my people need water and there is none, when their throats are dry from thirst, I will answer their prayers and will come and help them. I will not forsake them.
Pina Colada Smoothie
Now the picture I have is the before without kale..I did make it again, in the morning, with kale..and the taste is the same =)
2 cups cubed pineapple
1 cup coconut milk
1 cup kale(optional)
1 small container greek vanilla yogurt
1 tsp vanilla extract
1 cup ice