As time has passed, the days quickly slipping by, there are times I can become discouraged but others amazed. To look in the mirror at the woman God has slowly created me to be. To see the prayers I have been so fervently praying for, slowly answered. It has been a bitter and painful battle. Moments I have cried, broken at the thought of what I had done. Realizing the extent of the sins I had nailed to my Savior on the cross. Other times going through so many different struggles, letting go of many old ways..changing my life. It hasn't been an easy journey. But think about the rocks in the tumbler. Are they slowly and ever gently rubbed to get to the beauty inside? No, they are tossed back and forth, knocked to and fro..but worth it in the end. The beautiful shine and glory they become, worth the rough tumble they went through. I think the same with my life. The last few months have been super hard for me. The painful experiences and struggles not easy. But I have endured. This endurance has brought a new side in me I didn't know about. A strength inside me I didn't know I had. A total trust in the Lord moment by moment. To truly let go and realize that only God can do this. Through all this I have hope. I know, even though it seems impossible, that God will take care of everything. I know all will be ok. To have total peace even in trials.
This morning, as I opened my Bible, it parted on Matthew 6..as I read, I realized these were words from God. Comfort and promise for today.
To not get weighed down by the world and worry, but trust moment by moment. This is where God wants us. Total dependency on Him. He asks us not to worry about tomorrow but just live faithfully today. That tomorrow will have it's own problems. My job today..is to glorify God. Today to tell someone about Jesus. To give strength to others who are weak. To lift up and not tear down. To give hope where there is none. All that other stuff, God will take care of. The worries and fears, burdens and stress..God promises to handle that part. What a great God we serve that takes such wonderful care of us. That loves us that much. I am grateful for these trials I live in and struggles I have tasted, for it is slowly helping me to become more and more like Him.
25 “I tell you, do not worry. Don’t worry about your life and what you will eat or drink. And don’t worry about your body and what you will wear. Isn’t there more to life than eating? Aren’t there more important things for the body than clothes?
26 “Look at the birds of the air. They don’t plant or gather crops. They don’t put away crops in storerooms. But your Father who is in heaven feeds them. Aren’t you worth much more than they are?
27 “Can you add even one hour to your life by worrying?
28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the wild flowers grow. They don’t work or make clothing. 29 But here is what I tell you. Not even Solomon in all of his glory was dressed like one of those flowers.
30 “If that is how God dresses the wild grass, won’t he dress you even better? After all, the grass is here only today. Tomorrow it is thrown into the fire. Your faith is so small!
31 “So don’t worry. Don’t say, ‘What will we eat?’ Or, ‘What will we drink?’ Or, ‘What will we wear?’ 32 People who are ungodly run after all of those things. Your Father who is in heaven knows that you need them.
33 “But put God’s kingdom first. Do what he wants you to do. Then all of those things will also be given to you.
34 “So don’t worry about tomorrow. Tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.