Im a caretaker,a nurturer by trade. My God has blessed me abundantly with this gift of love. To have this burning desire inside me to give what I have to others. To fix what is be broken. I learned a hard lesson awhile ago that not all can be fixed.
For many years I worked in the emergency room and saw life fade in front of my eyes. Lives lost at too young of an age. Battles faced because of sin in this world. Still, I fought against the truth. Then one day, I watched my own grandmother fade in front of my eyes. No amount of love I could give..no amount of nurturing could bring her back. As life slipped away, I fought against it. When she stopped eating or drinking, that was one of the things I remember most. Nothing I could do could make her drink a cup of water or even a swallow. The battle inside me to force it down her..and the will to understand I couldn't. This is when reality started to hit for me. Life is like this. We can do all in our power to fix things..but it will never heal the world. It will always be broken. It will always be sin-filled. There will always be death,sadness,and pain. I had to come to grips with this. As I watched as doctors did all in their power to bring back life..there is a time when they have to stop. To let go. To understand there is nothing else that they can do. The nurses worked hard to do all they could..and at times the pain cut deep in the process of letting go. My God is the ultimate Physician and Healer..and Father. He knows the end from the beginning.
We have to come to the understanding that God wills things to happen..why, we don't know. Someday we will when He comes to bring us home. I have to understand I cant fix everyone. I cant heal the broken hearted at times like I want to. I cant take away the pain someone might face each day. I cant fix everything. Sure, I can wipe away my daughters tears when she scrapes a knee, but I cant mend a broken heart like God can. I can give words of promise and love that He gives me...but He is the ultimate Healer. This is that hardest part in my life to come to grips with. To,again, let go...and let God do the work. To heal. To mend. To love. This is Gods job..not mine. I cannot change what life has been drawn out to be, but I can be willing to be there when He calls for me to help Him do the work. So, for me, though I couldn't heal my grandmother. I couldn't fix her broken body. But..I could love her. I could make sure she was comfortable. Its what God has blessed me with. We have to understand, like I said before, that we cant change people, we cant change this world..but we can make a difference. Use the gifts God has given you to show Christ..to show love as He does. Be his helper to get the work done so we can all go HOME!
He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds