"Why were you so afraid? Dont you trust God?"
This man that could stop a storm in but a word. This man who could still the crashing waves and thundering sky in but an instant...and yet we doubt He can conquer the storms we face today.
My problems, that are so trivial next to others, still burdens me every morning.
My husband, who lost his job several months ago, still seems to have a faith much stronger then mine. He trusts where I worry.
Its been difficult as Christmas looms over head and I watch my bank account dwindling. I cry out to my Lord, yearning for answers, yearning for help.
The same cry I have read about in David so long ago. A desperate plea for answers and the same feeling of being left alone.You ask, but then you feel like your pleas go unanswered, the problems don't go away. We have gone from job after job, constant rejection the answer.
Extra expenses keep coming in, the school bill never stops, the groceries always in demand, the electricity sky rocketing in the winter air, the clothes my kids need...and now the dreams of what they want for Christmas...and then with a baby to arrive in several months..
So yes, my heart has been heavy with worry to how I am going to get my kids what they want...and keep food in the fridge.
This battle I face today, I have faced before.
Finances can go high and low, but praise God for emergency savings. Praise God for His constant help in the times of trouble.
The lesson to be learned is right here in front of me. The answers to my problems lay out before me.
The parable about the seeds falling on good soil, rocky soil, and weeds..The faith that can dwindle and fade with worry of the world or choked out by the first signs of problems in our life.
Do I want that faith? Or do I want the faith of the good seed on good soil, that flourishes even in times of trouble?
That holds steadfast in the storms of our lives.
That, when the world turns against us, and problems overwhelm us, we keep our eyes above, never looking away.
Having faith in each step of the way, trusting that God will provide and take care of everything. For doesnt He provide for the sparrows each day?
Did He not save the disciples in the storm, quelling the storm?
So...today Lord, I ask for this trust, this faith, to keep me going, to keep me strong. Lord use this as a lesson to me, teach me Your ways.
That in every storm there is a lesson to be learned and strength to be taught.
May I constantly come back to this post in remembrance of what You have done and will do in my life and all around me.