My mind can be my worst enemy, working many words of discouragement inside, the confidence I had built up from the morning , gone by night.
My shoulders straight and smile plastered on my face seem to fail as the sun dips low in the sky. Words run through my mind..fake it till you make it.
As I write, I glanced down to the Bible open in front of me..
"If God loved us so much that He did not spare His own son, but let Him suffer for us all, wouldn't He willingly do anything else to help us"(Romans 8:32)
Thank you,Father, for these words You give me this morning. You know I needed to hear them.
My God is so good..the reason my shoulders can straighten is because of these exact words. Sure, the sadness life can throw at us can make them become so burdensome, but it is through these promises, that they can become light again. As a new day begins, my load isn't as heavy as the night before. The promises on the pages can make our pain not so deep. The doubt not so terrible. This battle of my mind can only be given as thought of as like a tug of war between God and satan.
If I give into my feelings of despair,fear,doubt...the weight on my shoulders won't get lighter..and soon it won't be just at night that I go to crawl into my bed to hide from the world. It will eat away inside me and separate me more from God. That's what the devil does to us. He is that roaring lion, circling hungrily around us, waiting to catch us at our weakest moment, to break any signs of happiness that comes into our lives. Brings words of doubt and criticism into our minds,attempting to ruin anything God gives us or does for us. He is good. He knows all your weaknesses. As I said before , we don't give him enough credit. I am learning through my battles to kneel in prayer..to talk to God when I feel the weight. To plead for confidence and happiness. To tell that devil to leave me alone. I am GODS CHILD. We must prepare for these times ahead. We must fight through any signs of discouragement and lean on the promises of God. When doubt courses through your mind, remember the blessings and laughter.. The love and peace..don't forget the peace. These are gifts from God. My oasis in the storm of this world. My light at the end of this dark tunnel. When times grow hard, just open His word. We must push away any signs of discouragement from the devil and fight. Not hide. To fake it until you make it at times. To smile though it may be hard. For victory is closer then you think. God is so good. The plans He has for you and me is far better then any doubt or sadness we face right now. Shoulders up and face the world today my friends. Conquer the doubt. Conquer the devil.
The self-denial, temptations and sufferings that we go through because we are Christians are not even worth mentioning when compared with the glory that God will bestow on us when He comes.
I am convinced that nothing can separate us from Christ-life,death,or angels,or demons,or earthly powers,or things present,or things to come,or heights or depths,or anything else. NOTHING can drive a wedge between us and Gods love as seen in Jesus Christ our Lord.
For this reason, since the day we heard about you, we have not stopped praying for you. We continually ask God to fill you with the knowledge of his will through all the wisdom and understanding that the Spirit gives,so that you may live a life worthy of the Lord and please him in every way: bearing fruit in every good work, growing in the knowledge of God, being strengthened with all power according to his glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience.
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