From work issues and a house that needed to be cleaned..I literally dived into everything.
Regardless to say, my body physically and emotionally stopped working by mid afternoon...and I felt the huge urge to just sit down and cry.
The dream of coming home and snuggling with my new baby seemed to get sucked away. I was a wreck.
It was then that I realized my state and decided enough was enough.
What was important first and foremost was my family and they needed me in a good place.
What help was I to be if I was running myself ragged.
I mean, hello...I did just give birth to a baby only saturday, and here I was trying to be super mom AGAIN..and only making things worse.
In proverbs 31, I think it was just figurative speech in regards to working late into the night and arising early in morning.
I mean, if the woman didnt sleep and take care of herself, how was she to be kind to others, also laughing at the days to come?
How could I be the woman I desire so much to be in the Bible, as Gods child...if I am trying to do everything all at once.
We, as women(and fathers too) need to set our priorities straight.
Maddie didnt need to have a mom all exhausted yesterday and emotionally stressed..neither did my husband or baby.
It was then that God said, stop..and it was then that I looked at my husband and said, I cant take it anymore...its time to take a nap.
I literally clocked out of work and stress..and enjoyed my family that God blessed me so much with.
Look at how fast the devil can work at distracting us from what is truly important. It isnt always about work..its about helping others and showing love as Christ did for us.
He wasnt consumed with life and issues..about how people treated Him..His only concern was how HE treated them.
So..the evening ended the best way.
I woke up feeling like a new person, refreshed and then reminded of how truly truly blessed I am.
As I looked at my sons little face as he lay curled in my husbands arm..I knew this is the moments I need to cherish..Not work..not overwhelming issues I am face with daily..to not let people get to me, but to always remember to live as Christ lived.
So moms...dont be so consumed with life and work..dont worry so much about financial issues or problems life throws at you. You are only given the moments you have once..Josiah will be little for such a short time.
I lost those moments with Austin, consumed with self..I will not let that happen again.
My God hears and answers...in giving us another chance to do it right from the very beginning!