The last few years of his life, he was able to strive ahead, with freeing himself from the snares of drug addiction, and finding hope in a hopeless world.
But the battle wasnt over, and was really hard for him as obstacle after obstacle kept getting thrown into his path.
I cant tell you how many green smoothies and power foods I poured down him to help him cope with his anxiety/depression.
He would laughingly look at the concoction I made him and question what I was "slipping" inside it this time.
Yet, those many things he ate and drank made a huge impact on how he felt.
The best times for Seth was the times he was eating right and spending alot of time outside in the fresh air.
For me, I will remember him always with his earphones in his ears, listening to either Hillsong or an audioverse, a carpenters pencil behind his ear, nails jingling in his pocket, as he lined and cut pallets for his next project.
Those were the times Seth found true peace and happiness.
The moments he was free from his mental illness and was able to build things..
Unfortunately, between all the obstacles he kept dealing with, every time he started to get hope..another thing happened..another leading him into the grasps of depression.
The day we went to see a doctor, they prescribed him the meds that triggered him into slipping away...I wont ever forget that day.
He wanted to get better..he wanted to not battle this infliction anymore.
But in the end..it isnt a pill that will cure your all.
Yes, there are mental illnesses that need medication..for Seth..he was just given the wrong ones.
The thing is, it isnt just a pill that will be your healing but also the lifestyle you lead.
The devil will continue to throw many things into your path to discourage you..make you feel worthless. But you arent worthless..your a jewel in Gods eyes.
You are so special to him that he knows the very numbers of hairs on your head.
The promises that He gives in His word, brings us hope and encouragement in a dark world.
Unfortunately, with the battle Seth endured, he lost that hope that he had found and the world swallowed him up.
Drugs seeped back into his life, causing further hopelessness and loss.
The best thing for Seth was fresh air,excercise,diet, and of course God.
How could he have that with the things that had slipped back into his life.
We cant hold hands with God and the devil at the same time.
Seth knew this..but was so desperate to find relief from the anxiety..and with paxil hindering his mental reasoning..the drugs won the battle over my husbands life.
But it isnt over yet..another life can be saved through Seths life.
Another life can be helped by the things Seth did BEFORE he was prescribed Paxil.
The healing powers of living the right life with God in the picture..I witnessed that with my husband..and plan to share that path with others battling this very battle.
Seth is resting now until Jesus comes..then as the trumpets shall sound, the dead in Christ shall rise first, then we will follow them up into the sky to our Maker..and there will be no more pain, sorrow, or tears..the old things shall pass away.(1 thessalonians4:16,17/Revelation 21:4/2 Corinthians 5:17)
So until then..it is time to share YOUR story to help others in need.
This world needs HOPE..
Do you wish perhaps there was something you could have done to have reached out to my husband, if you were the ones that knew him?
It isnt too late...there is someone out there this very minute you can help right now.