from battling the waves. I feel like I am sinking. Gasping for air, I struggle to stay above. "You promised, God, not to give me more then I could handle..are you sure I can handle this?"
That's life. That's each and every persons experience. It may be in a different story, but we all at one point feel like we are drowning. Maybe it's something we did wrong that has grown into something even bigger..that's out of our control. Times we have to suffer because of it..but it's the promise that even though it was our fault in the beginning and that what we face now is because of it..God will still bless it. He can turn any bad thing into a blessing if we just trust in Him. If we just turn to Him with complete sorrow and remorse..He can fix it. He will fix it. The storm we find ourselves in, He will bless it in a way that we can grow from it and help others. As I have shared many times, we all mess up. Leaders and just plain people like me..mess up. Doesn't matter how strong or how high up we can get..we still fall. We can fail. It's the promise of never leaving us or forsaking us when we do that keeps me going. Keeps me from sinking into the depths of the crashing waves. To keep fighting. To keep above water. I was talking with my wonderful mom yesterday, who always gives me the perfect words I need to hear. I asked her if God would turn something bad that we have done into something good? Can He? She looked at me and nodded her head. "If someone is truly repentant of what they have done, then yes, it is in Gods word that He can turn even bad into good."
How does that make you feel? What an awesome God we serve that even when we mess up, that He can turn it around to be a blessing. I would say that's a pretty loving God. A forgiving God. Not a God who is looking to burn someone up in a split second or make them suffer and suffer. No..if my Father is so eager and willing to fix us, to fix our mistakes...He most definitely deserves the title of Father to me. For isn't that what a true Father should be like. I envision it rather like a child who is distraught at having broken something of someone else's. Tears running down their face in true sadness of what they have done. Totally distraught. Then their father crouches down next to them and hugs them, telling them it's going to be ok. He would help fix it. He would make it all better. Reaching out to dry their tears and holding them close as they feel his reassurance . That's what God is to me. He will fix our mistakes. Fix what we have broken and wipe our tears away. Giving us the strength to carry on another day.
I found a perfect hymn for this today-
"What a friend we have in Jesus, all our sins and griefs to bear;what a privilege to carry everything to Him in prayer!
Can we find a friend so faithful, who will all our sorrows share? Jesus knows our every weakness; take it to the Lord in prayer!"
Whoever conceals his transgressions will not prosper, but he who confesses and forsakes them will obtain mercy
Though he fall, he shall not be cast headlong, for the Lord upholds his hand.