I am one of them.
Before, when someone came into the emergency room with anxiety/depression, it, to me, seemed like nothing...a cut on the finger for a dr not an er.
I am glad that God has changed that view for me..to open my eyes and heart to the true struggle of what a lot of people are going through.
I love my husband even more today, then the day I walked down the isle with him. I have even more respect for this man and his choice of life each day, even when this heavy burden is placed on him.
Yes, day by day, he is getting better, praise God.
As the medication has worn off and withdrawals disappeared, he has become the man God has designed him to be.
I think the hardest for him is to learn to handle what life throws at him, without medication to dull it.
I am so sad at the judgement some have placed on people who suffer with this.
Since we began journeying through this, I have had many people emailing me, sharing testimonies of their struggles and how God pulled them through.
Yesterday, I had one share of a marriage that made it to 31 years, many of them spent while her husband struggled the addiction of crack.
Prayers and now he has been clean for many years..their marriage strong.
That's how God works.
So what have I learned about this battle my husband endures?
Anxiety/depression can cause you to feel like you are slipping from reality and that you are worthless.
Times you wish each breath could be your last...do you think judging someone who is going through this is going to help them or make them worse?
Did you know that in anxiety attacks, people say and do things, that most likely, they would never do in their normal
state of mind?
It has taught me the true meaning of love keeping no record of wrongs.
To forgive and forget.
To truly keep the spirit of God in my life so that I can be that rock for him when he comes out of the fog.
Do you know depression...you can't just say buck up and get on with life.
It's really hard.
I've watched the struggle first hand since I have known my husband.
How I pray to see him completely released from this battle he has to endure.
Did you know that, originally, people who are put on paxil/welbutrin may not suffer
from insufficient dopamine/serotonin levels, but after taking it, they will.
10 years ago my husband was given medication for getting off drugs..now he has to suffer
anxiety/depression and a long list of side affects because of it.
The withdrawals he had to face today was due to a dr that just kept refilling and refilling without helping, without seeing what being on all these meds was doing to him.
I had one share to me that during times of their medication withdrawal,
people thought they were crazy..they were alone in this maddening world of anxiety.
But, in the end..where was the support?
It was the medication that was making them this way...not them.
Withdrawals can cause you to slip in and out of reality.
To feel like your losing a grip on your mind.
I have a heavy burden on my heart now for this battle.
I have watched my husband go through it every day.
There just isn't enough awareness out there.
I hope that there will be a time that there is more help out there for such a thing.
A place to go, for people to help you through this...to share how they understand also.
I thank God every moment I can for bringing these stories, friends, testimonies, emails, to me for strength...for a reminder that God is in control even when, at times, things seem to spin out of control.
Do you know what would help someone the most going through this? Support. A pat on the back and phone calls to remind them that you are there for them. To love..to listen..
Instead of judging someone...reach out to them.
Try to understand the battle that they may be going through.
We are all children of God.